So... I have been wanting to write, but every time my attempts were thwarted.... by the impossibility of writing via an iPad. A mini one at that. Once we have the iPad, the poor laptop has been gathering dust. So here I am, firing it up again because I couldn't bear to see my blog abandoned.
I have expected this, the slow death of blogs what with the popularity of FB. But I like blogs. It affords me to write more and the audience is usually somebody I don't know. Heheh... the beauty of writing anonymously.
Hmmm.... what has been happening ? My children are getting bigger. I feel so sad sometimes watching them because I always feel that I didn't do enough. I have always wondered if I am attentive enough mother, whether I am actually a good one that they will revere.... heheh... asked for nothing less than to be revered, hey ?
About a month ago, when Adik came down the stairs just in t-shirt and jeans, Babah commented that she looked simple, and Babah liked that. Usually when she goes out, there is the pre-requisite cardigan and bag. But as she swept passed her Babah, she said, "I don't do simple, Bah. I do fabulous..." Hehheheh.... Babah didn't manage to say anything at all after that.
Once I asked her the whereabouts of her brother. Her answer ? "He has locked himself in the room, like any normal teenagers, mom..."
Heh... yup. She herself has grown up and what more her brother who like she said, spent his days in his room, doing God knows what. However, he still comes to the room to drape himself on the bed or lie on the floor while watching telly with me. Until Kamil comes to chase them away, that is.
I don't know why he does that. I feel so sad whenever I see their dejected looks and slowly leaving the room. I keep telling him that they wouldn't be with us for long. Even now Abang is spending less and less time with us, but no... he doesn't listen. Being a parent could sometimes be very melancholy. Watching the kids grow hurts. I know I should feel proud to see that I managed to raise them even though I work.
And I am still working and missing my kids.
On a happy note, because I work we are taking the kids for a holiday next year. January we will be visiting Dubai.
So that is nice.
I can't wait.
You know I keep thinking what else I can write about. You know anything that is exciting at least.
Hmmm....
I am getting a new niece. Yeay ! She is not ready yet.... there is still some months... but she is coming soon.
I managed to drive myself to Genting. Yeay ! But... it is really not even halfway. I didn't go until the end. Just until Genting View Resort. Itu pun my second meeting there. My first meeting, Kamil took leave and sent me all the way there. I protested of course, telling him it is unnecessary as I am very sure I could navigate myself there. I mean bukannya I will be going off-road kan. He, the love of my life, just harrumphed and looked skeptical. I know when I am in a losing battle....
Hehhehe.... Killjoy.
Huh.... that is it.
Haha..... I will try to write more. But it depends if I actually have anything to write about.
2 comments:
Please write more. I do enjoy your writing a lot. Me missing the kids too. Out of 3, 2 have gone abroad...suddenly our small house becomes big. Big empty space.....so sad...only get to meet tthem once a year..
Dear Anon... thanks for the compliment. And I feel you, doll. I couldn't imagine when I am finally in your shoes !!!
Once a year is not enough.... Sob Sob
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