Last time when I had wanted more children, I had taken the liberty to choose the names of my babies first. Trust me, when naming my children, I had never consciously planned to choose only 4 letter names like mine.
I only noticed it when introducing my babies to my mom’s closest friend Aunty Nah, she remarked to her daughter, who is one of my oldest and closest friend Tati, “Look Tati.. M only chose 4 letter words for her children…”
Aunty Nah, really !
Ha ha… she meant well okay peeps.
Anyway, I chose Abang because of my utmost admiration for Umar Al-Khattab, a feeling that developed when I was still in high school. Amelia was well aware of this and when I first announced I am having a boy she went, “M !! You are getting your Abang !” Yes I am !! And I did and he is wonderful, my baby boy.
Adik I chose from one of my favourite books when I was little, Born Free by Joy Fielding. It is the name of a lion, but takpelah as I found out it meant Devotion To God. In fact it was suggested in an Islamic Baby Name website I found.
And then when I was 29 and was ready to have another baby, well my husband was not. Sad. As I had dreamt of my Lyla or my Noah.
And now at 33… I feel like I am just too old. That the phase has passed and I am ready for something else. Of course if Allah ever said Kun Fa Ya Kun, I will be counting my blessings.
But I still think of Noah. And Lyla. Sometimes. And the what ifs.
I only noticed it when introducing my babies to my mom’s closest friend Aunty Nah, she remarked to her daughter, who is one of my oldest and closest friend Tati, “Look Tati.. M only chose 4 letter words for her children…”
Aunty Nah, really !
Ha ha… she meant well okay peeps.
Anyway, I chose Abang because of my utmost admiration for Umar Al-Khattab, a feeling that developed when I was still in high school. Amelia was well aware of this and when I first announced I am having a boy she went, “M !! You are getting your Abang !” Yes I am !! And I did and he is wonderful, my baby boy.
Adik I chose from one of my favourite books when I was little, Born Free by Joy Fielding. It is the name of a lion, but takpelah as I found out it meant Devotion To God. In fact it was suggested in an Islamic Baby Name website I found.
And then when I was 29 and was ready to have another baby, well my husband was not. Sad. As I had dreamt of my Lyla or my Noah.
And now at 33… I feel like I am just too old. That the phase has passed and I am ready for something else. Of course if Allah ever said Kun Fa Ya Kun, I will be counting my blessings.
But I still think of Noah. And Lyla. Sometimes. And the what ifs.
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"and now at 33... i feel like i am just too old." -> uwwaaaahhh!!! too old u say? i am a yr older and i still have an un-utillized womb ! sedeyy tau ! then again, blum kawin so not much i can do there lah kan.
i've always liked the name Sakinah which means calm n tranquility, i believe. eloklah sgt kan, time dia baby, harap2 takla byk melalak dan buat kerenah. bila besar karang, ikut cakap mak dia. mak dia suruh itu ini, she'll reply calmly and obediently ,"yes, mummy." hahahaha, iyoo lah tuh.
Ha ha... That is just me feeling old at 33... I have to say that I have about 5 friends my age who are preggers !
Ah Zee Umar means famous so if he follows his name... well... suffice to say I tak nak anak I masuk Akademi Fantasia okeh....
judging from ur previous entry, if Umar does his rendition of eh wau bulan, the audience will be terpegun tak terkata. hehehe. alaa u, apa ke bestnya famous pasal AF tuh, fleeting popularity je tuh.
i am sure Umar will be famous one day given his already evident intelligence and sensibility. Prof Dr Umar, haaaa, it does have a nice ring to it, doesnt it? Amin !! better still if he is an advocate for women's rights :) hmmmm, sayang betul i takda anak pompuan. takpe, hari ini jugak i advertise for virile husband candidates ;)
hang ni preknen ka?
Ha ha...I have forgotten about my son's very special singing ability.. NOT ! I think kalau dia masuk AF, I lari pi overseas...
Amin to Prof Dr Umar... I dah tanamkan kat dia that he ahs to be a doctor sebab only doctors can afford a Porsche.. Jahat kan I ?
Amin to you finding a virile husband too ! Virile is the operative word here my friend. Ha ha
Konot.. dak aih... Ni aku dok terbayang kalau lah Dan setuju nak have another baby when we were 29.. well I would have a 4 year old now... Tapi dia masa tu kawai sungguh his little swimmers.. Menyampah.. Sekarang dia nak pulak donate... Too late !
33 lambat? ni nak habaq, aku ade mackcik umur 18 thn, mak dia beranakkan dia masa mak dia umur 55. healthy dan takde down syndrome..
so myra, ape lagi...!!! hehehe!!
ko jgn dok plan, sbb hangpa mmg tak pandai plan.
kawan aku, dapat baby bila umur dah 45 dan gap dgn anak yg lebih tua ialah 11 tahun...
huhuuhuhu... anak eksiden katanya..
My dear Myra,
I came across ur blog thru arwah sheera's blog, on the day she left us. I've always been a silent reader enjoying ur entries. However, ur entry today prompted me to write something to u and ah-zee.
nothing is too late in our life. At 33, I was still single and only settled down 4 yrs later. Now in the 40s, I'm blessed with 3 beautiful children. Don't give up ur hope ah-zee. And Myra, u can still have ur Noah and Lyla.
no lah. definitely not too old. i tutup kilang 35 kot. teringin jugak lagi satu. tapi kena buat pelan tindakan dulu hahahah. dan anak2 jugak kena jadik dokto semua so that buleh bagi aku ribu2 sebulan hahahahah!
lupa lak.
i thought Elsa sounds very German. don't you think? lovely name.
Sheik... mana hang tau kami tak pandai plan ? Cess...
Sakinah... I am glad to know another of arwah's friend. Thank u for reading my blog.
I do agree that nothing is too late.. We'll see kan ?
Thanks a million.
Ana... Ye betul... aku kena make sure anak2 semua jadi doctor.. termasuklah anak sedara aku yang 2 tu... Jenuh dok memujuk ni tau..
Elsa is a German name. This Islamic Baby Names website I found promotes names that has good meaning eventhough it is not of Arabic nature... Sebab yang penting maksud dan bukan bahasa... Allahualam
Talking abt Sakinah, tiba2 Sakinah muncul to give words of encouragement. Thanks! :)
I still have optimism within me. My own sister too had her first-born at age 38. I guess as long as we keep ourselves healthy and maintain a regular cycle, churning out tip-top eggs, then it's a start, hehe.
You have lotsa love to give, Myra. it's commendable that you look upon ur arwah SIL's young ones as ur own too. so with 4 in tow, i am rooting for a 5th to come into the picture sometime soon ;)
Ah Zee I know ! I ingat u dah tukar nama... he he....
Ah Zee... no 5 he he... I don't know what to say !
keadaan tak pandai plan ni terjadi kepada ramai couple
bak kata pepatah.."sarung itu tidak memadai dan kadang-kadang tak sempat nak sarung"
Sheik.... Hmm.. macma pernah terjadi kepada yang empunya badan aje... kuang kuang kuang...
hahaha..kami tak pakai sarung ma..
cerita tentang sarung, pada suatu masa dulu...kawan aku si anon pernah meminta tolong kepada aku untuk membeli stok sarung.
katanya si anon "ada kawan aku kat UK yg kirim, depa kata kat UK sarung adalah mahal"
masa tu bulan posa. maka dengan muka selamba aku pegi dengan si anon kat seven eleven, pastu tanya kat minah cashier:
aku: ade sarung tak?
minah cashier: ade..tuuuuuuu..
aku: saya tak nak sikit-sikit, dalam kotak ade tak?
minah cashier: ade (*senyum macam siot)
aku: ok kasik saya 12 dozen. saya ni bukan ape dik, selain nak pakai, saya tumpang beli untuk kawan2 yang segan nak beli sarung masa bulan posa ni...ngeh ngeh ngeh..
si anon dengan muka tersiput-siput pun senyum..macam siot je..patutnya dia yang ditugaskan beli..aku pulak yang kena tanggung balaq dia..
setelah beberapa lama, bila couple UK tu balik...kami pun berkenalan....dan jadi kawan baik sampai sekarang...muahahahaha
Laa... ye ke ? Teringin aku nak kenal kawan ko tuh, Swinging Bowl !!
Aku benci kepada mu !!
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